To Shame the Wise

Lately, I have been trudging through a lot of difficulties in the way that I think and act. These habits, even though having been helpful in the past, are now decidedly poisonous. They are completely incompatible with having any kind of deep relationship--and it is because of a relationship that all of these septic, cantankerous approaches to life have come to my attention. It had previously occurred to me that I was not the smartest person on earth, but I didn't believe it...that was my mistake.

Whatever I think or feel is true, right?
Whatever my mind and senses can interpret as reality--is reality, right?

Well, that strategy has worked well getting me through school, getting a job and being decently competant in that regard but what about the people that I want to get close with...? It doesn't work at all. I can't deduce; I can't strategize; I can't investigate and come to logical conclusion; I can't... This realization has left me at a loss...but that is when Jesus steps in.

When there is less of me there is more of Him. I am all about having Him replace the parts of me that are causing the pain, frustration, and doubt of these last couple months. I am learning that I have to take His word, and believe it, and act on it. It doesn't make sense to me but the things that have made sense don't work...so now I am left with believing in the things that are nonsense. He uses the foolish things to shame the wise...